How a Paper Airplane Ended My Career
I knew it would come to this. I'm getting fired tomorrow. I've been pushing the envelope of the work-from-home culture, and now it looks like I'll have plenty of time at home to work on my own projects—which, admittedly, I’ve already been doing.
Looking back, it maybe wasn’t as lucky as I’d thought to go viral with my home-based business. Honestly, it probably could have been okay if I hadn’t repurposed so many office supplies.
The last time I made a fool of myself was on the radio, promoting my harebrained scheme of paper-airplane-based media. Yes, the idea is outlandish, but it was starting to work. I was building a fleet of messenger planes and recipients in our mesh network.
But when I was on KUTX promoting the scheme, I froze. I couldn’t say a word. My mouth was opening and closing like a dummy without a ventriloquist. The interviewer, Laurie Gallardo—who was a friend of mine—was trying to guide me toward something to say, but I was dumbstruck.
I’ll never apologize for what happened next. I was so mortified, so anxious, that my mind descended into an abyss lower than I ever remember going—far lower. The deepest, darkest black. Soundless. Without any trace of light. Nothing bouncing, only being swallowed into nothingness.
I caught a glimpse of perfect stillness that I’ve since sought, and have never come anywhere near again. I’ve tried meditation, qigong, heated yoga, tantric sex, auto-asphyxiation, all kinds of drugs. I’ve tried getting tattoos in painful locations I hesitate to reveal. Nothing has gotten me close to the nothing.
I’m tempted to break my own rules in revealing this secret experience. As a rule, I don’t tell people about it—or even try to remember it myself. But I trust you. Maybe there’s something dark inside you too. Maybe you can relate. Maybe you long for stillness—for that fine line between the entire cosmos and the black hole engulfing it all.
And maybe you have a twisted sense of humor, or just the right amount of gullibility. I wouldn’t recommend taking the same path I took, and I certainly can’t go down that road again myself. But there’s a type of ultimate failure—a premature death of the ego—that shines, even as it blots out memory, time, and existence.
I’ll invite you to stop listening, to stop reading, to wander off in your mind. Detach from your concerns, from the need to show me you care about me or that you’re a good person. Be still. Embrace humility. Hold in the breath as if it’s your last. It might be, if you do it right.
This practice of death-in-life is maybe what mystics and shamans—not the shaman from January 6th, mind you—bring from parallel dimensions into ours. It’s crazy.
I had written a poetic form of the story I started telling onto a paper airplane, and as luck would have it, it landed on my boss’s desk. I don’t know who forwarded it there, but he wasn’t ready for it. It didn’t help that it was—like many of my fleet’s hulls—made from company letterhead.
🚮 W.A.S.T.E.: Words Assisting Sustainable Transformation & Ecology
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| Air Canopy (0.00) | A suspended layer of fragrance and filtration woven through the city’s atmosphere, releasing restorative scents while purifying the air and easing public unrest. |
| Bryce (0.00) | A wandering steward of stories and seedlings, moving between libraries and creeks with pockets full of cuttings and unfinished sentences, leaving behind fragments that root themselves into community. |
| Circular Economy (0.00) | The linear take-make-waste model is failing. The circular economy offers a regenerative, restorative path. This section shows how ReLeaf in Austin, Texas, puts that approach to work. Through articles and Organic Fiction, we document practical steps toward sustainable, democratic, and equitable exchange. ReLeaf helps unlock dormant spaces for shared income and supports Austin’s Zero Waste goals. The team is not only imagining a better future. They are building it. Picture a city where waste is rare, materials cycle again and again, and success includes social and environmental gains. Join us as we trace Austin’s shift to a circular economy and consider how the same principles can scale worldwide to create shared prosperity and lasting sustainability. |
| Code Rain (0.00) | The visual shimmer seen during network synchronization events. Appears like falling digital mist that leaves no trace but calms the mind. |
| Consciousness (0.00) | The shifting field of awareness where perception, memory, and meaning converge into the experience of being. |
| Cultural Shift (0.00) | This section tracks how values, habits, and public space change when a city commits to circular practice. In Austin, neighbors trade skills, repair before buying, and design for reuse. Rings of contribution replace price tags. Libraries, depots, and gardens become the new main street. The mycelial network carries stories, trust, and logistics. Culture moves from me to we without losing room for individual expression. What you will find here: • Signals: new words, rituals, and cues that mark progress. • Practices: repeatable actions you can start this week. • Places: sites where the change is already visible. • Stories: Organic Fiction that lets readers rehearse the future. • Metrics: simple counts that show whether care is growing. Use this to learn, copy what works, and leave your own trace. The shift is live. Help steer it. |
| Detective Langley (0.00) | A weary investigator navigating the submerged veins of Future Austin, Langley carries the scent of rain and rust wherever he goes. Once part of the city’s official order, he now works in the shadows beneath the Air Canopy, where moss grows on forgotten walls and secrets ferment in the damp. Haunted by fragments of memory and guided by instinct more than allegiance, he moves through the city’s underworld like a reluctant archaeologist of truth. Langley’s strength lies in quiet observation—his ability to read a room, a person, or a silence. He distrusts clean answers and prefers the grime of uncertainty. Though the world above glows with sustainable illusions, he stays below, chasing whatever still feels real. |
| Ego Eclipse (0.00) | The sudden blackout of self, where shame or awe blots out thought and leaves only nothingness. |
| Envelope Push (0.00) | The reckless act of testing the boundaries of work, play, and rebellion with fragile materials. |
| Future Austin (0.00) | Future Austin invites you to explore a luminous vision of the city’s tomorrow—where imagination and reality intertwine to create a thriving, sustainable urban landscape. Here, grassroots ingenuity and cutting-edge technology power communities, transforming Austin into a place of boundless possibility. Through insightful articles and evocative Organic Fiction, you’ll glimpse futures shaped by innovators like ReLeaf, whose bold strategies—such as Vertical Garden Fairs in schools—seed green revolutions in unexpected places. From unconventional movements like Trash Magic reimagining music distribution, to fictional worlds alive with unseen energy and harmony, this collection offers both practical inspiration and immersive storytelling. Whether you’re drawn to actionable sustainability or simply wish to lose yourself in tales of a resilient, radiant future, Future Austin points toward the city we could create—and the one we must. |
| Green Technology (0.00) | Innovations and systems designed to minimize environmental harm while promoting regeneration, weaving sustainability into energy, materials, and everyday life. |
| Historic Homelessness (0.00) | In this next section, we invite you to envision a world where homelessness, a complex issue deeply entrenched in economic inequality, lack of affordable housing, and inadequate mental and physical health support, is no longer prevalent. We explore how ReLeaf, an innovative company in Austin, Texas, is actively working towards making this vision a reality. Through their creative and compassionate initiatives, they are not just tackling homelessness but also shaping a future where everyone has a place to call home. The articles that follow will explore ReLeaf's unique approach. They demonstrate how employment opportunities and community engagement, stemming from their ecological solutions of vertical gardens, are offering a pathway out of homelessness. But they do more than that. They offer a window into a future where a secure home is a universal reality. Imagine a world where the uncertainty of shelter is no longer a concern. How would that transform our cities, our communities, our interactions? What happens when every person has a place they can call their own? A place where they can grow, dream, and contribute to society. We begin to see that it's not just about the elimination of homelessness; it's about the creation of a society characterized by security, stability, and dignity for all. A society where everyone has a meaningful role and the opportunity to live a fulfilling life. Join us as we journey through this potential future, drawing inspiration from the steps taken by ReLeaf. As we move through this exploration, we encourage you to imagine the transformative power of a society that has effectively addressed and eradicated homelessness. |
| Historic Hunger (0.00) | In this section, we explore a future where hunger is not just addressed but completely eradicated. By considering innovative solutions like those pioneered by ReLeaf, we can see how these initiatives are transforming not only our cities but the very structure of our societies. Hunger, a challenge that has existed since the beginning of human history, is being tackled directly by ReLeaf in Austin, Texas. Their revolutionary vertical gardens are more than symbols of urban revitalization—they offer a glimpse of a future where nutritious, locally-grown food is available to everyone. Through a series of thoughtful articles, we examine how ReLeaf's work is laying the foundation for a world free of hunger. The potential impact goes beyond food; it suggests a profound social transformation where the basic human need for nourishment is universally met. Imagine what a society without hunger could look like. How would our interactions change if the fear and uncertainty of securing the next meal disappeared? Could this foster greater empathy, kindness, and community spirit? ReLeaf’s initiatives give us a glimpse of this possible future. Their work shows that the answers to long-standing issues like hunger are within our reach, inspiring us to envision a world where human dignity and mutual respect become the standard. Join us as we explore this hopeful vision of a future free from hunger. |
| Hyper-algae (0.00) | A bioengineered strain of algae designed to purify air, absorb toxins, and restore ecological balance at accelerated rates. In Future Austin, it serves as both a tool of renewal and a potential weapon—capable of cleansing the city’s atmosphere or, if misused, destabilizing it entirely. Hyper-algae represents the blurred line between sustainability and control in a world trying to rebuild itself through living technology. |
| Literary Criticism (0.00) | This selection of articles offers a deep dive into Organic Media narratives and eco-futuristic themes, intersecting literature, architecture, and speculative design. Through these works, we explore how storytelling becomes a vehicle for envisioning green futures and resilient societies. The articles are grounded in a mix of fiction and theory, drawing from notable works like The Crying of Lot 49 and Gödel, Escher, Bach, alongside practical ReLeaf initiatives such as urban gardening and waste management. These discussions weave together the environmental challenges we face today with imaginative, forward-thinking solutions. From vertical gardening in urban settings to speculative parables of technology’s role in shaping ecological harmony, the pieces not only critique but offer actionable insights inspired by literature, philosophy, and cutting-edge sustainability movements. Each article is a testament to how art and fiction can fuel change, showing how imagination blends with real-world solutions to create a future that is both possible and desirable. The symphony of eco-conscious architecture and literature, particularly in the Chthulucene, shines a light on the pathways to regenerative cities, where design and storytelling converge to guide a sustainable tomorrow. |
| Shoal Creek (0.00) | Shoal Creek is changing. At the Seaholm Intake, the water and stone hold a new role for the city. Engineers and naturalists are close to confirming a time-bending effect in the current. Short pulses move both downstream and upstream. Standing near the intake leaves people rested and clear, as if a long afternoon just ended. This site becomes a public time commons. The cooled chambers host sensors and quiet rooms. The walkway links to Central across the water. The mycelium network listens, then routes what the creek gives: steadier attention, better recall, and a calm pace for work and care. What to expect: Check-in stones that log a short visit and return a focus interval Benches that sync with the flow and guide five-minute rest cycles A simple light on the rail that signals when the current flips A small desk for field notes and shared observations Open data on pulse times so neighbors can plan repairs, study, and gatherings Invitation Come without hurry. Sit by the intake. Let the water set your pace. Then carry that steadiness back into the city. |
| Sky-taste (0.00) | A mineral sweetness in the air under the Air Canopy after it condenses and releases purified moisture. Many say it tastes of memory. |
| Stillness Burn (0.00) | The addictive afterglow of touching nothingness, impossible to replicate through effort. |
| Sustainable Business (0.00) | Welcome to our section dedicated to Sustainable Business, a realm that unites profit and planet, blurring the boundaries between commercial success and environmental stewardship. In the spotlight is ReLeaf, an innovative organization that is trailblazing a new path for sustainable business practices in Austin, Texas. Our selection of articles and SolarPunk fiction explore how ReLeaf addresses various sustainability challenges, from fashion waste to climate resilience. In a world grappling with resource depletion and climate change, we delve into how ReLeaf's cooperative ownership model not only empowers vegan values but also presents a viable, sustainable alternative to conventional business structures. We will explore how ReLeaf embodies resilience against environmental challenges, such as El Niño, while remaining a commercially viable venture. The articles also take a critical look at the shortcomings of traditional business models and how ReLeaf stands as a democratic counterpoint to corporate corruption. Join us as we delve into these inspiring narratives that reveal how businesses can effectively balance profit-making with environmental preservation, and in the process, spark a transformation towards a more sustainable and equitable world. |
| Twilight Accord (0.00) | The agreement struck across generations of the self, binding doubt to courage. |
| Vintage (0.00) | A modest bookstore on Rosewood whose shelves sometimes rearrange into corridors, known as a threshold site where maps reveal hidden paths and readers become co-authors of the city. |
| Waste Integration (0.00) | In a world grappling with waste management crises, Waste Integration offers a novel solution. This philosophy looks beyond mere recycling or upcycling; instead, it weaves waste into the very fabric of our everyday lives in a meaningful and beautiful manner. Explore a wealth of creative methods to turn your home and community into sustainable ecosystems, where every item has a purpose, and nothing goes to waste. From transforming scrap metal into functional art, to building modular planters out of discarded plastic, Waste Integration is a testament to human creativity and resilience in the face of environmental challenges. With a combination of theoretical discussions, practical guides, and inspiring stories, our Waste Integration content shines a spotlight on this game-changing movement, demonstrating how each one of us can contribute to a more sustainable and circular economy. |